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Now to the title of this post. Recently, I got called in for a job interview for a sales company. Me! A sales company! To be honest, I was just so sick and tired of searching for jobs through the traditional path—by handing in my resume to stores, and applying at places like Boost or clothes shops, where young women like to flock to when they look for jobs—that I decided to aim for greater pastures, and applied for a string of customer service jobs, requiring no experience. On my resume, I have written that I am a writer, with a blog, three books under my belt, and that I am very creative and outgoing, because that is the only way you can gain any jobs in customer service.
And, frankly, while the interview process was like a dream, I don’t think it is the right career path for me. This job that I applied for is all about closing sales, and business to business sales, where you market through face-to-face interactions products and services to businesses. If anything sounds like an introvert’s worst nightmare, that certainly is, and I would rather teach Early Childhood Education, hands-down.
Before the interview, I was a nervous wreck. My hands were sweaty, my heart was pumping. This job interview was held in the city, and, in the city, far away from the suburbs, people are different. They walk differently, talk differently and act differently. They are brisk, professional, confident and efficient. Just being around them was extremely intimidating. When the actual interview came around, I was in a state of nervous shock. In fact, I was so shocked I forgot to be nervous, and actually relaxed into the interview—this was helped by the fact that the interviewer was very kind, nice and patient, and very relaxed, too. He told me I’d made a good impression during my interview, and to expect a callback around 3 to 4pm, but I don’t think I’ll be accepting the job, any time soon. It just isn’t the right role for me.
So there you go. There was my brief foray into the business world. I put on formal clothing, wore make-up, did the handshake, (bought a $20 pair of new shoes that made my feet bleed, ugh), blurted out a whole spiel of stuff about business, in particular the business I was applying for, which I will not name, just for confidentiality purposes, and at the end of it, I had a couple of heart palpitations and felt a lot of pride. Because stuff like this, for INFPs, isn’t easy. Job interviews, the corporate world, tall men in suits: these are things which intimidate us the way lions do rabbits. And I managed to get through it. If I managed to get through it, then you, my dear dreamer, I am certain, will be able to overcome whatever is causing you anxiety at the moment, whether it is asking a crush out, or a job interview, or something else, like a career change, or speaking in public, or whatever it is that you find challenging or hard.
While you’re going through it, it is very hard. But afterwards, you feel an immense sense of relief. You feel as though a great weight has been lifted off your shoulders, and, what is more, you feel confident, or at least more so than you were before. Every experience, I’ve come to realise, whether it is good or bad, as long as it doesn’t impact your health severely or kill you, has its merits, its learning opportunities. As INFPs, our natural instinct when faced with challenges is sometimes to hide and shrink away, especially if they don’t involve our ideals and are to do with survival and money-making, but sometimes, it is a good thing to step out into the spotlight, and try something new, even for a little while.